So let mercy come and wash away....

I've liked this song from the moment I first heard it on the radio. I love music for the simple fact you can always find something that sums up your mood and this songs does that for me. I've had to come face to face with myself over my past mistakes. This is the theme song of my life right now.


Linkin Park What I've Done

Nomadic Thoughts

Enjoying a lovely day off work when this thought hit me: I long to be nomad. I don't know where this thought comes from to be honest. I remember reading the gospels about Jesus sending his disciples out with no money, no extra clothes and just told them to go. I've been thinking a lot about what kind of christian or little Christ I am to the world around me. I've always longed for the more life shattering parts of following Jesus but I was lulled to sleep with the possessions this country could offer me. The more stuff I had, the emptier I felt. I was selling my soul to not feel like myself. Romans 1:21-22 says, "For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools." I just don't know what to say after that scripture because it tears my heart in two. There are so many things that I regret that still eat me up inside. There are memories that cause me to want to crawl into a cave. I'm so afraid to face the world around me as this broken person. I am a very torn up person most of the time. Trying to rediscover yourself after you've had this fake identity would be the hardest thing in the world to accomplish if you did not have any supernatural help. Jesus says in Matthew 18:3 "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." I want to change.






Christ has die and
Christ is risen,
and Christ will come again

I'm an Adult? Are you serious?

I think I have officially hit that point where I sleep way less then I need to and I always feel like I'm at work. The time is currently 2:23 as I type this sentence. Why am I still up when I have to start my 3.5 day shift at 7am? I helped by covering night watch on Saturday night and stayed up for church and then slept a little too long. Now, I'm starting to get tired again but also realizing I have 16 hours today of managing a group 10 troubled teenagers. I guess this is what "adult" life feels like? Maybe so. Either way I'm slowly getting more and more used to this kind of lifestyle. The appeal of the so-called slacker college life has lost a lot of its luster to me. There comes to a point to where you can't live your life as a slacker. There's far too much to do and to create in the time that you have been given then to sit around and wonder why your life sucks. That I think is the greatest tragedy of the society that we live in. We expect everyone else to do everything for us instead of taking control of creativity that we all have. For years I've heard about the potential people see inside of me. I really want to use this time now to allow God to get me to the point where I can honestly go back to seminary with no doubts or regrets. That's what I want as I slowly become comfortable with my so-called Adult life.

I heart Iron and Wine

Cinder and Smoke is a great great song.

Hillsong United-Solution

Andy has been doing this song a lot at church lately. And I really love it. I've been listening to it a lot lately as I wait for Jesus for President by Shane Claiborne, who authored Ordinary Radicals, who in the book is making a point to Christians that being a Democrat or Republican is not how what we decide to do things to help this world. The Kingdom of God is what decides what we do in dealing with ourselves and the world around us. God is the solution and politics should not decide if we are his hands and feet to the world around us....





It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only You can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only You can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a Father to the fatherless
Our Savior and our King
We will be Your hands, we will be Your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be Your light
We will be Your light

We will be Your hands , we will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light
We’ll sing

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

We will run we will run
We will run with the solution (2x)

We will be Your hands we will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be Your light
We will be Your light
We sing

Tank!

I have many memories of watching this with my brother Christopher...





Why do I mention this? I just bought this complete collection off of ebay for 20 bucks. Not bad for six seasons of probably the best Japanese cartoon ever made. Or at least my personal favorite.

Let the morning

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. -Psalm 143:8